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The Interwebs Rant Part Two, The Attack of the Angst

A while ago I ranted here about the internet. I talked about how fantastic is seems sometimes to be connected like this, to people I never could have met otherwise.

But there are some days I really hate it.

Today I was checking emails and remembered an old address that I hadn’t checked for a while. So I log in and find an email from my estranged father. The last time I spoke with this man I had an emotional breakdown at my own birthday party.

He wrote about how guilty he felt for leaving. How he wished he had kept in contact. He ended with, 'From your loving father.'

I just stared at these words. Just words on a page from this man who hurt me badly. The words didn’t feel like him, they felt empty. If he said this me, if he looked at me and told me he was truly sorry and he loved me it might heal some of the emotional wounds I’ve been carrying around so fucking long.

So for today at least, I hate the internet. Yet I still love it. All humans need to be heard. In posting this maybe someone will hear this. That isn’t much.

But maybe its enough.

QUOTE THE SECOND

"We're just animals, howling in the dark because it's better than the silence."
- Suzie Costello, Torchwood

EPIPHANY

I have come to the rather unexpected conclusion that life is good.

And no, I did not get laid, sadly.

I had this epiphany while reading one of the many MySpace bulletins/chain-emails/anything of that sort that was complaining of the state of the world.

As I am rather tired, and do most of my best thinking while rather tiredor rather drunk, I realised that life actually isn't as bad as people make it out to be.

It has its ups and its down. And at times it may appear that there are far to many downs and not nearly enough ups, but it's not all bad.

Firstly, people complain about the state of the world today and (this one applies to the older generations particularly) how much better things used to be. THEY WEREN'T BETTER. There were world wars and vast sicknesses and plagues and slavery and a global recession and MUCH more discrimination and many, many more things wrong in the world. Therefore, there aren't more problems these days, there are simply different problems.

Then, there's all this talk about how computers and internet are meaning that there is much less communication (I apologise for the appalling grammar). But, and I can see that this is a very "internet-generation" point of view, I talk to my friends, who i know all of outside of the internet, on MySpace and Msn and via email etc.

I'm not religious, so I don't believe there is a reason for life or a divine plan or anything like that. Life is just a coincidence. Life is just chaos. Nowdays, people might be attempting to organise the chaos, but all you end up with is vaguely organised chaos.

I figure you may aswell just go along for the ride, enjoy it while you can, because, ultimately, you only get one shot at it.

Life's a game, so why not play it? Of course your going to bend, and even break the rules every now and then, but that's most of the fun.

So, basically, what I'm trying to say, in my own, cynical way, is that life's not as bad as people seem to think. People are either stuck in the past or stressing about the future.

All you really have is now, so make the most of now.

Run.

Jump.

Dance.

Sing.

Scream.

Fall.

Get back up and do it all again.

A Day In The Life Of

Any explanation of the contents of this conversation would ruin it. Don't try to make sense of the maddness.

Fnord: I'll show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

PASSIONATELYapathetic: I like that in a girl.

Fnord;You like a rabbit hole in a girl? . . . Maybe a spoon in the rabbit hole? Or the absence of spoon (It is not the spoon that bends) Ahhh! Think about purple elephants! Think about purple elephants! EVERYTHING IS RUINED FOREVER!!

PASSIONATELYapathetic: I like the absence of a spoon in a rabbit hole with a girl having sex with a purple elephant while ruining everything forever.